Whenever I think of the power of childhood memories, I am reminded of the MFA graduate lecture of author Sarah Sullivan while we were classmates at Vermont College.  Sarah guided us in an exercise that asked us to remember a place where as a child we felt safe, a place where we felt “cradled in security.”  She helped us through a series of guided questions to remember that place and suggested that in some ways we're always longing to go back.  We began by drawing the place, sketching in details as best we could remember.  Once immersed emotionally and visually in our “safe place”, we were asked to gradually ponder these questions: “What do you see?  What do you hear?  What do you smell?  Are there people around you?  Is there an animal nearby?  What is above you? (a ceiling? tree branches? the sky?)  What is below you?  (water? grass? a floor?)  What do you remember?”

“Without our memories, what are we?” asks Leonard Pitts in a recent column.  “We are the equation after the blackboard has been wiped, the sandcastle after the wave—smeared images and shapeless shapes melting into the sand.”  (Chicago Tribune, p. 18, 10/30/14)  He's referring to recent visits with a favorite aunt who's now living through the lens of Alzheimer’s.  Yet she still remembers.  Maybe not what happened ten minutes ago, but what happened fifty years ago.  She remembers how to sing “The Way You Do the Things You Do” with the Temptations and how to hug her nephew, and what it feels like to go to the movies.  Leonard Pitts’ fond remembrances of his aunt echo the emotional resonance of the novel The Madonnas of Leningrad by Debra Dean, a story that shows how the mundane present existence of an Alzheimer’s patient can’t hold a candle to her powerfully moving memories of life decades earlier when she helped rescue art treasures during the Nazi invasion of her hometown in Leningrad.  Without our memories, what are we?

Maybe the old adage, write what you know, would be better phrased, write what you remember, write what you feel.  Sarah Sullivan’s memory exercises are powerful methods to get at what matters most in a story, what Sarah calls “the emotional truth, the stirrings of a writer’s heart, the wood smoke rising between the lines.”

“I learned not to look away at the moment when I should be paying the most attention.  The closer I got to the heart of a scene, to the really difficult material to write, the emotionally challenging stuff or the exchange in which the conflict is made most explicit, the more I’d look for a way out of writing it.  This was out of fear, obviously, because you don’t want to run up against your limitations in craft, intelligence or heart.  It’s much easier to duck the really vital material, but it kills what you’re writing to do so, kills it instantly.”  Matthew Thomas, on writing his novel, We Are Not Ourselves, interview with John Williams, NY Times Book Review – Open Book, 9/7/14

“Soon, you’ll grasp that sentences originate and take their endless variety from within you, from your reading, your tactile memory for rhythms, your sense of the playfulness at the heart of the language, your perception of the world.”  Verlyn Klinkenborg, Several Short Sentences About Writing (p. 93).

 Take heart.  Take courage.  Take time.



 note: thanks to the slow mo guys for their inspiring slow-motion photography

“Time is all we’re given in this life, the hours and what we do with them.  It sounds simple, but it’s true, and it makes you realize that you have to pick the areas in your life that cause time to stop, that make you feel the fullness of the moment.  Art can do that.”

Film director Richard Linklater, from an interview in the Chicago Tribune, July 14, 2014

This photo looks down my street towards my hometown library on a foggy night.  I'm lucky every once in a while to capture a moment in a photograph that I don't know how to express in words.  Except for my home page, most of the photographs on my website are ones I've taken.  Books, photographs, music, drawings, paintings, sculptures, dancing...what would we do without art?

When I was a child, I loved to climb trees.
Trees gave me a sense of physical exhilaration
as I scaled the trunk and limbs,
a far-reaching view
of my patch of the world,
and the healing grace
of respite and solitude.
Today, when I peer
into the high branches of a tree,
I remember the utter feeling of
powerlessness I experienced as a child
and the certainty each time
I shimmied up a tree
that I would one day emerge
from the dark days into a canopy of light.

Five favorite picture books about trees:
A Tree is Nice by Janice Udry
Leaves by David Ezra Stein
Caps for Sale by Esphyr Slobodkina
Christmas Farm by Mary Lyn Ray
Tap the Magic Tree by Christie Matheson

                     A TREE GROWS IN MY HEART

Many years ago, my husband and I toured a house we hoped to buy in our local historic district.  Our first concern was not the amount of restoration the house required but the massive tree out front, a towering maple with limbs resembling a sumo wrestler.  The tree had grown so close to the end of the driveway, I was certain I’d hit it whenever I pulled out with our car.

“You’ll never hit that tree,” my friend Sandy said.  “It’s so huge you’ll always be worried when you back out, and therefore you’ll never hit it.”

She was right.  Though trepidation guided the first times Duane and I eased out of the driveway, the old house charmed us.  We became its proud new owners and grew accustomed to maneuvering our driveway, though visitors avoided anxiety by parking on the street.

Years passed with substantive house restoration.  Our house became a home.  In pleasant weather, we enjoyed lunches and suppers on the front porch, greeting neighbors as they passed by.  I adored our maple tree for its wide arms that shaded our front lawn each summer, for its glorious shades of yellow leaves in autumn, sunlit against the sky before they cascaded down, and for the artistry of its dark branches that laced the winter clouds.

Then one summer, a storm blew through town and tore one of the muscled limbs from our tree.  The giant limb fell along the curb strip, its long branches extending into the street.  Traffic stopped to survey the wreckage.  Neighbors and passersby helped my husband and father-in-law clean up the damage.  Though our front curb was no longer shaded, the tree survived and managed to shade the rest of our lawn.  Years passed.  More branches and limbs fell during storms, but the tree persevered.  Because it grew along the curb, the city was responsible for trimming its broken branches.  One year, the clean-up crew told me they should take down the tree.

“Do you have to?” I pleaded.

“Well, maybe not yet,” they relented.

More years passed.  More limbs and branches fell, and more pleading and relenting reprieved the tree.  Finally one spring, only a few leaves grew in, long after the other trees on our block had turned green.  Duane and I surveyed the bare branches in mid-summer and knew we had to let our tree go.  The crew came and cut down the remaining branches until only the trunk remained and two limbs sticking up in the air as if the tree had surrendered.  I thought my heart would break.

I couldn’t watch the final removal of the trunk and roots, but in later weeks as I mourned the empty hole on our front curb and gaping space in the sky, I knew we should plant another tree as soon as possible.  I called our city parks manager.

“I’m getting a shipment of red maples,” he said.  “Would you like one?”

The crew came to plant our new tree one bright autumn day.  I ran outside with a plate of cookies, bubbling with questions about care and maintenance as they planted the six-foot tree a few feet from the end of our driveway.  I touched its slim silvery trunk and realized how many years it’d take before the tree would grow tall enough to shade our lawn.  But its spritely branches claimed my heart, simply with its promise that it would grow.

Our beautiful new maple grew several inches those first few months, and that spring, I found myself looking not at the wide space in the sky once filled with leaves and limbs but straight ahead at the branches blossoming in front of me.  May the wind blow gently upon them.

Suggested reading: A Tree Grows in Brooklyn by Betty Smith

In my house we have one caramel colored dog

and three caramel colored cats.

Sometimes our caramel colored grand-dog comes to visit.

A few of my favorite dog and cat picture books:
Story County Here We Come by Derek Anderson
Meeow and the Big Box by Sebastien Braun
Bonaparte by Marsha Wilson Chall
Homer by Elisha Cooper
Go, Dog, Go! By P. D. Eastman
Rrralph by Lois Ehlert
   Here is my granddaughter’s collage homage to Ehlert’s art work:
Dog Food by Saxton Freymann and Joost Elffers
Widget by Lyn Rossiter McFarland
The Broken Cat by Lynne Rae Perkins
Skippyjon Jones by Judy Schachner
There are Cats in this Book by Viviane Schwarz
Mrs. Crump’s Cat by Linda Smith
No Roses for Harry by Gene Zion